Working While Attending University

In my last post I mentioned that I’d be trying hard to blog at least twice a week – obviously that hasn’t happened.

This is my first time working while in school and it’s taking me a long time to get used to. As a keener, studying and getting my homework done is always my main priority, but work has been getting in the way of that. Furthermore, since all my free time is being spent scrambling to complete all my readings etc., I have little/no time to blog or do anything that I really enjoy (watching anime, art, blog, watching more anime…).

This upsets me.

Now, I realize that the majority of students out there work jobs while in school and that my struggle isn’t unique in any way, but it’s new for me. How do these students do it? How do they go to school and go to work and get their homework done without becoming overwhelmed? I mean – it’s only the FIRST week of school and I’m already stressing out! Granted, the whole anxiety issue doesn’t help…but still!

Does anyone have any advice? I need the money (we’re buying a new house), but I also need good grades (good as in I typically achieve mostly A grades with the odd B grade).

Any help would be appreciated.

Cheers guys,


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I’ve Deleted Facebook and Signed Up For Dance

For me, the more important of those two is the dance classes. For my friends, it’s that I’m no longer on Facebook. 

That fact right there is one of the many reasons I finally did the deed and removed myself.

“Dance eh? That’s cool. But why’d you delete Facebook???” 


– I don’t agree with their privacy policy (have you read it?)

– The viral and essentially pointless stories and information don’t benefit my life in any significant way…

– …and they annoy me 

– We all know that many of our “Facebook friends” aren’t really friends at all; my true friends hardly ever used Facebook to contact me because we have other ways…because we’re actual friends

– It’s a time waster and there are many other things I should and want to be doing

I could go on for a while but I’ll spare you the ranting. If you haven’t watched any videos or read any articles about the benefits of deleting your Facebook account, I strongly recommend you do so. My sister in-law is really the one who gave me the extra push I had been needing for a while. She and I are very, very similar and without knowing that I had been contemplating the deletion of my Facebook for about a year or so, she randomly informed me that she was deleting her account and encouraged me to do the same. It took me a while, but I did it! 

I deleted my Facebook. 

And my life hasn’t changed at all, except that I find myself keeping busy in other, more rewarding and productive ways. 

Which brings me to my other little announcement: I’ve signed up for dance for the first time in my life. This wouldn’t be such a big deal if I didn’t particularly love dance or wasn’t really interested – but I’ve been in love with it and have wanted to learn since I was a young girl.

I was involved with music at a very young age and it has always come very natural to me. So, naturally, I’ve always loved moving to music also. However, my family wasn’t well off enough/put their money towards other investments and so whenever I asked to learn dance, my parents always said that it was either dance or piano. Considering that we had already purchased a piano initially for me specifically, I always felt that piano needed to come first – which I don’t regret at all. Learning the piano is (in my opinion) so essential to learning music itself and is the first step to fully understanding the theory and production of music. 

But I finished piano about 4 years ago (I still play often just for my own enjoyment) so I figured that it was time to dive into the next musical adventure: DANCE! 

Maybe you’re wondering what kind of dance I’ve signed up for? Well it’s called Dancehall!! I didn’t know it existed until I started browsing some dance studio websites from my city; there were links to the styles they offered and so I clicked on dancehall out of curiosity. It was love at first sight to say the least!  

After that, I became even more inspired when I found Elena Yatkina on YouTube. She is an amazingly talented dancer from Russia and I watch her videos a lot. (Please go check her out!) Watching her dance is what made me decide to take dancehall classes. They style of dance is close to what I have always done while dancing in front of my mirror or at the club, so I thought it was a perfect fit for me. 

My first class is on the 10th and I’ll definitely be sharing how it goes! I can’t wait. 

On another random note, I also had my first acupuncture experience this morning. It felt nice! 

As always, thanks for reading! 



PS: Elena, if you ever read this – thank you so much. xox

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Three Young Boys – A Poem

Three young boys sat
in the wicker porch swing
swinging just enough
to cause a creak
in the weathered chains,

an easy summer’s night
wind teased each head of hair
while in the silence
each young mind cast a wish
upon the star that could be seen
smearing itself
upon a blackened canvas.


©Shelley (Tea Shell)

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This Is Hard

I know it’s been a while since I last wrote and I feel I should apologize. 

I don’t know why or what stops me, but it’s hard for me to write. No – let me rephrase that: it’s hard to motivate myself to actually sit down to write and not get distracted. There have been at least 3 things I’ve been wanting to write about but I kept opening my draft and then deciding that I do it later. “Later” has turned into “not at all” – and that upsets me! 

If you’ve read my first couple posts, you’ll know why I started to blog again. Well, so far I haven’t been as committed as I should be. I realize that blogging isn’t something I’m getting paid to do and that it is totally something I’m doing voluntarily…but it’s something I told myself I would be committed to. I’ve had 3 other “blogs” that were simply failures. I don’t want this to be the fourth. It won’t be! 

So, tonight…here I am. 

I’m alone and it’s Friday night of the September long weekend. But I chose this; I could have joined my husband and his friends in their camping, but being the only girl gets old after a while. I’m not complaining at all, I’m just … well, a little low I guess.

Oh no!! That reminds me – I forgot to refill on my meds! No wonder! It’s been a couple days already that I’ve been without them…oops!

Well, anyway…I’m glad I was able to at least post something, even if it was just my rambling. 

My current goal is at least twice a week. I head back to university soon so I’ll get pretty busy, but I’m sure I’ll find even more things to write about. 

Bye for now and thanks for listening, 


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Maybe It’s the Rain

Okay, I know it’s summer and that living where I do in Canada that I should be appreciating all the summer I can get…but I’m ready for Autumn. As I’m writing this, there is a ton of rain falling outside and it’s about 11 degrees Celsius out. I’ve got a steaming cup of chocolate-chai tea beside me in my favourite Harry Potter cup, with some chill folk music playing softly.

Now all I need is to live in a log cabin up in the mountains with a fire going. There could even be a light sprinkling of snow over night! That would really complete the fantasy I have right now…

There’s not a whole lot I can think of to say other that that.

Maybe it’s the rain?

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Off for the weekend!

Hey all,
I’ve been meaning to write a post earlier this week but things just seem to get busy and before I know it I’ve hardly got time to sleep. I do have a draft I’ve been working on here and there so… We’ll see.

My husband, our doggies and I are off for camping this weekend up north. It should be fun. I’ve told myself I won’t drink too much but it’s with our old landscaping buddies (and they get pretty rowdy). Unfortunately for me, my meds make me feel like complete garbage the next day (it’s like two hangovers in one) both physically and emotionally. Because – of course – it cancels out the meds…which isn’t fun.
Additionally, I can’t help but freak out a bit at all the calories I’ll be consuming if I drink! I bought light beer, but it’s still so much…

Anyway, I’m writing this while on the road (hubby is driving) and I have a crappy phone plan with not much data. One of the dogs just barfed too so I’ve got that mess to clean too…

I’ll talk to y’all on Sunday!


PS: To all of you that have started following me – thank you so much! I didn’t expect that at all. It means a lot!
Take care, xox.

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A Message to The Depressed

These are incredible words and I couldn’t have said it better myself. This video spoke to me so much and practically made me cry. I felt like he was speaking to me directly…
What he says is 100% true. Every word.
Please listen.

Living, Breathing, and Surviving, and Coping with Mental Illness

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